Brutal...

The past day and a half have been absolutely brutal.
I have been with my sister in grief. I have held her as she sobbed. More times than can be counted. I have watched her cry with those that feel his loss. I have seen the grief and heard the words that come with losing someone so young and so incredible. I have learned things about him I hadn't had the chance to learn yet. I have felt at a loss to help.
I have felt the loss of a great man.
Also...
I have almost pulled hair out.
I have almost slammed a face into a counter.
I have almost punched someone.
A bunch of times.
And multiple someones.
I have lost sleep over a woman who is so heartless she doesn't deserve this sentence.
I have bothered a funeral director to the point where he may or may not have walked away from me at one point. (I followed.)
I have been outspoken, but not loud or obnoxious.
I have been told to cool my jets.
I have also been told my bail, should I need it, would be covered.
Yes. It was that bad. Brutal.
All of this as my sister mourns her best friend, her soul mate, the person who successfully saved her from herself, and the love of her life. (All things she was to him. Without doubt and verified many times over the past day and a half)
I played it cool. I didn't start anything. I kept my mouth shut and my fists of fury in my pocket. My sister didn't want me to make a scene. My husband was the voice of reason. My dad told me to cool it. The funeral direction said he had the cops on speed dial. My uncle said he'd post my bail. (see that conflict?)
We stood together as a family - my parents, my sisters, my brother, my sister-in-law, my daughter and son-in-law, my nieces, my uncle, my sister's friends, my nephew, my niece-in-law.  (and my son and daughter-in-law who tried so hard, but couldn't be there, but were there for discussion and venting.) We constantly reminded each other that everyone knew the truth of the situation. We saw it. Everyone saw it. We witnessed people proving they also knew the truth.
But, yet, it was brutal.
From the "party scene" mentality going on in front the open casket, to the complete and total lack of respect shown to anyone who wished to express their grief. The wake was more solemn and quiet that the services.
In the end though, it's about my sister and having to make a new life without her soul mate. It's about being with her and here for her as she struggles through what comes next. It's not going to be easy.
And today we learned of another passing - the mother of a dear friend. It wasn't unexpected, but that doesn't make it any easier.
Cancer sucks.
Behave!

Check This Out...

I'd like to welcome my very own sister to my blog for a guest spot!

She has her very own Etsy shop and is selling a whole bunch of fantastic stuff that you might like to check out and potentially buy!

Let's do a little interview so you can see that she's as weird as me...

1. Tell us a little about how your Etsy shop came to be...

      Well, after researching some items , just out of curiosity, I realized that there is a market for vintage anything!  So I decided I would open a shop and see what happened!  Now although, I have not sold very many items I am on a mission to find the item that you are looking for!

*Let me just add here that my sister and brother-in-law inherited a fantastic house from grandma! It was stuffed to the gills with great stuff and even though most of it has gone to auction, they're still finding tons of really cool things. (And my sister loves exclamation points!) Ha!

2. You love antiques... I know this... I've trekked through briers and rough terrain (in heels!) to look at antiques with you... What's the deal? It's just old stuff...why bother?

I feel that antique or vintage items have a story to tell.  I like to imagine how things were when these items were made and used.  What were the people like, how different was the area, did they ever think "wow this may be worth something someday"?

The world we live in now is centered around "disposable things"  if it breaks just replace it. The things I sell were made to withstand normal use, and come from a time where people took pride in their possessions!

3. You moved into a house full of antiques. What's the best and worst part of that?

For starters, the daunting task of deciding what to keep, what to throw away, or what to send to auction.(if I had only known what I know now!)

Finding awesome new treasures every day!

4. Chocolate or Vanilla?

Vanilla

*(Let me just add... This is one of the only areas we disagree!)

5. Favorite television show?

can I have 2??

Supernatural!!

The Walking Dead!!

*Yes, you can have two!! I'm sooo far behind on The Walking Dead!! (And apparently I love exclamation points as much as my sister!)

6. Do you have plans for the zombie apocalypse?

absolutely!! bring it on!

*We'll be there with you! 

7. Tell us about some of the good stuff that can be found on your site?

I have many unique mason jars that would make great decorative pieces, as well as completing sets for a collector.  I also have many mid-century kitchen items.  And there is much more to come!!  The research can be a bit time consuming!

8. You walk into a hall with three doors... red, green, black... which door do you go through and what's behind it?

red, a nice comfy bed.

*I should have asked what was behind the other doors. 

9. Sam or Dean?

both

*Same here! I can never choose!

10. Anything else?

Stop by and check out what I have to sell!

https://www.etsy.com/shop/VintageGeekakc

Look at this:

Thanks to Ami for coming over to answer some stupid questions and hawk her wares! 

Check her site out if you're interested in antiques. You never know what she'll find in the attics and storage spaces on the property!!

Behave!