Monday, October 31, 2016

Mixed Bag...

We closed on my parent's house today.
I definitely have a mixed bunch of emotions going on right now.
I'm thrilled that our work days over there are done, but also a little sad because I got to see my siblings every weekend.
I'm also thrilled that the work of being an estate administrator is nearly done and that the estate is on it's way to closing.
It's hard to think about not going over there anymore though. My parent's lived there for over twenty years - so there are a lot of memories even though I didn't grow up in the house. My kids did, though. They've only known that house as Gram and Pop's. Christmas Eve's, New Year's, birthday parties, small dinners, big dinners, helping out with stuff, doing crafts together, working on cars, just hanging out... So yeah, I'm not quite sure how I feel at this moment... I have no more keys to open doors, no more need to head over and make sure everything is okay, no more checking the mail a few times a week. It's going to be a little weird, for sure.
It's a new grief - one I wasn't really expecting, but the finality of it is like a sharp knife into the wounds of losing both of my parents so close together and so quickly. It's like an end cap on the last two plus years. I lost more in those two plus years than I even thought possible. Some I'll get back, some I won't, but it feels weird.
I'll figure it out.
Met my sister's for lunch afterward, which was nice. Food was awesome, and we laughed a lot. Then to the post office to make sure that transfer happened. Now tonight is Trick or Treat night here. We'll see how that goes, but I get to see my Mr. B.
That's all for now!

Saturday, October 29, 2016

End of October....


So my baby boy turned 20 on Thursday! I feel old, even if I don't "feel" old! It's hard to believe that 20 years ago, we were doing trick or treat night and he was sleeping on me, That Man, or another family member all night. He was always the sweetest kid and still is. Funny, smart, and always full of spunk. He's turned into an amazing man, and is still funny, smart, and full of spunk. He makes me laugh, goes out of his way to help out, is super talented, and has so much potential. I'm very proud of him and excited to see what the future holds!

So I didn't do Feel Good Friday yesterday...
I'll do a really quick one now.
1. No cooking on Friday.
2. Sleeping in this morning
3. Living through the work week with multiple people off, so extra work load.
4. Sushi for lunch on Wednesday. Yummy.
5. Writing every night!

Five is enough since I'm a day late...

Yes, I slept in this morning. It was awesome. I went to bed at 10:30 last night (yes, I know. Lame for a Friday night...) and woke up at 9am. Had some coffee, paid the bills, cleaned up the basket of mail that's been piling up for a month, including the mail I've brought home from Mom's, did dishes, and then That Man came home and I made him go with me. We ran to the high school to see Misty and Barb at their book signing. It was a craft show and that place was crazy busy. They were doing well, which is awesome. Grocery store next, which is never a good idea when you're hungry. And I was starving. I'd eaten earlier, but messed around for so long before leaving that breakfast had worn off. Anyway, I saved $56.00 in coupons which is amazing, and didn't break the bank.

We came home, he changed a tire on K4's car with her help. K3 was home from work and stinking up the kitchen. Then we had to test drive the car to see if the problem had stopped, which meant running down the road for the ice we forgot at the store.

Made burgers and homemade mac and cheese for dinner. I'm still full and we ate hours ago... Ugh...
Tomorrow is our last day at Mom and Dad's before closing on Monday. I just want to be done. There was some drama that I'm assuming is okay with the second mortgage on the house. It better not mess up closing - everything is set. After closing, I'm meeting my sister's for lunch. Then it's trick or treat night here. I'm only working for a few hours on Monday - there's no way I'll be able to go back after closing. I was going to, but when I was talking it over with my boss I started choking up and I knew I wouldn't be able to. *shrugs* I'll get through it. It's like the last hurdle or something...

That's about it from here.


Monday, October 24, 2016

Why I Need The Beach...

1. The Ocean
2. Sunrise
3. Sunset
4. No day job
5. Having my own bathroom
6. Fishing
7. Hot tub
8. No day job
9. Sand
10. No pressure.

Yeah... It's been like that around here.

We close on the 'rents house a week from today. I had to do some finagling to get the time off of work for the paperwork signing - mainly because I'm not returning to work afterwards. I get a little choked up just thinking about being wholly and completely done over there, and I know it's going to affect me greatly once everything is final. For now, I'm just working on getting through the work week, and then getting through the weekend when we go over to make sure everything is out of the house and cut the grass one final time.

This week is pretty busy, so that should help. K3 turns 20 on Thursday. How crazy is that?

I am writing and journaling, so that's something, at least.

That's all for now. I'm going to try to get over here more. Be patient with me. I am coming back though, and one day I hope to be as amusing as I once was...


Wednesday, October 19, 2016

Holy Heck!

We're 3/4 of the way through October!
Sorry for the radio silence!
We went to the beach and it was amazing. Our house was awesome - perfect for our little group. The weather was mostly awesome, except for Hurricane Matthew threatening us. Luckily, we listened to the locals (and not the major weather people on the major channel) and had a full wealth of knowledge available to make our decision on whether or not we should bolt. Not bolting was the right thing to do. When we talked to the realty company, they advised to be off of the island by high tide - which was four hours after check out time, and we checked out about an hour early, so we were great.
It was an awesome week! Great food (really great). Great views. Great company. Not so great fishing, but that's okay. We didn't have a lot of good beach days - too windy and then rain, but we had a ton of fun hanging out at the house on the days we couldn't be at the beach. I read three books, journaled, hung out with my husband, sisters, kids - it was good. There was never a moment when I felt overwhelmed by dishes or laundry. Everyone kept up on the dishes and keeping the house neat - I swear that dishwasher ran 24/7. And we worked together on laundry - mainly because the stupid dryer took 3 hours to dry one load so we had to be on our toes and switch fast and pay attention. Our bedroom was awesome, heck, all of the bedrooms were awesome. We were right across the street from a cute little store/gas station - so close we could walk to it, which was sweet. Hell, the whole week was sweet. I wish I was still there. I want to go back now.
Actually, to tell the truth, I want to buy that beach house.
I found a cactus leaf on the beach on Friday. I decided to bring it home. I babied it the whole way home and then, sadly and suckily, forgot about it. I guess that was a good thing, because you're supposed to let them get "calloused" before you plant them. I'll be planting it tomorrow and then... eventually, I will transplant this cactus in front of our beach house when we buy it. :)
Oh... On the way home - as we were keeping just ahead of the rain, in Virginia - the water pump went out on the Jeep. What a pain. Our original ETA for home was 5pm. We arrived home at almost 11pm. Yeah, suck. But the guys were great getting it back together, even though they did so in the pouring down rain, and I'm talking bucket fulls of rain. It was crazy. We were all soaked!
We came home and had our Halloween parade, worked, worked, unpacked...
And now it's now...
Closing on the 'rents house soon. We'll be glad to have that behind us.
And I am writing! My sister suggested I try to journaling thing to free up my brain and I'll tell you, it's definitely working. I either journal before or after I write, but I've managed to hit word count for every single day of my group's writing challenge so far. That's progress like I've not had in over two years, so I'm good.
That is all for now.
I'll try to be better about blogging. I'm slowly putting the pieces back together, so bear with me.