Tuesday, June 16, 2015

Good and Bad!

I know I'm terrible at posting these days! I'm terrible at most things these days!
Here's what I'm bad at:
1. Remembering stuff. I've forgotten appointments, planned things, stuff the kids say, calls I need to make, and everything in between.
2. Doing stuff. I haven't written. I haven't cleaned my house. I am barely able to function these days.
3. Life. I suck.
4. Being a good friend. I suck at this for sure. I apologize. I don't mean to suck at this. I hate to suck at this, but I am having a hard enough time being a friend to my family and myself right now. And I hate it all.
5. Writing.. I know this is a kind of repeat. I haven't written since the Tuesday before Mom died. I have ideas. I have a short to write. I have edits coming soon. I am trying...
Here's what I'm good at:
1. Sleeping. (Though that's a lie) I want to sleep, but can't.
2. Being with my sister's and brother. We're awesome as a unit. We suck apart.
3. Crying at random times.
4. Missing my folks. I miss them both so much. I miss my Momma so much. She wasn't supposed to go so freaking soon!
5. I'm also good at NOT sleeping! Some nights are good. Others not so much. My brain takes over, the anger takes over, the sadness takes over, and I'm awake. I need a tazer for my brain....
Things to come:
1. Dealing with their house.
2. Dealing with certain siblings.
3. Dealing with our super good friends moving away and everything else friend related.
4. Being an adult. No way. Don't want to.
5. Staying where I am right now... Not acceptable.
1. Getting stuff done.
2. Mom's book coming out.
3. Finding a way to get back to me.
4. Knowing I have the best family ever.
5. Selling the house. Eventually....

ERG!!! That is all...

Thursday, June 04, 2015


My baby boy graduated from high school tonight!
It was an amazing ceremony full of music, tears, laughs, and love! There were only 42 graduating in his class, so much different than other graduations I've been to - including my own. The principal broke up with emotion many times during the night. So did the kids. And the teachers. And me.
They're a family and it was and is amazing. I'm so grateful he excelled there and that he loved it so much!
I'm so proud of him and I'm so proud to be part of this school. K4 has 3 more years there and I'm so excited for her!
And I'm excited to see what K3 does next!

Monday, June 01, 2015

Too Much...

So after an epic weekend of fun, craziness, and relaxation, we got home and found out Bob's best friend passed away in a tractor accident...
We are crushed.
Bob's best friend is also my sister-in-law's cousin.
I think this family has been through enough already...
I also think that's selfish of me to say, but I don't know how much more I can take.
That is all for now...